Filling in the blanks…

Ok. I admit it. I’m a slow-waker-upper. My husband used to say that when I first woke up I would bounce from wall to wall in search of caffeine. My sister, on the other hand, is wide awake and bushy-tailed the moment her feet hit the floor! I have improved over the years, thankfully… but I’m definitely NOT a morning person.

And so when my husband and I went for a walk a few mornings ago you now can understand why he was so perplexed when I pointed to a dead bird on the path. “Bird?” he said. “Does a bird have pincers?!?”

In my not-quite-alert state I had briefly glanced at what looked to me like a baby bird. I filled in the blanks, made an assumption, and announced, “Watch out! There’s a dead bird on the ground!”

I didn’t look closely to see what was actually on the ground.

I’m not alone in filling in the blanks, not looking closely at a situation, coming to erroneous conclusions. The Israelites fell into that trap several times.

Once they entered the Promised Land, the Israelites engaged in military campaigns to conquer the territory. Their mandate: annihilate the inhabitants and take over the land. Sounds brutal, and it was! Their first conquests instilled fear in the hearts of the people in the remaining territories. The inhabitants’ hearts melted and there was no longer any spirit in them because of the people of Israel (Joshua 5:1).

The city of Gibeon decided on a plan to trick the Israelites into making a treaty with them, a treaty that would obligate the Israelites to come to their aid if the Gibeonites were attacked. They came up with an elaborate deception to save themselves from what would be certain death once the Israelites invaded their city.

They went to the camp of the Israelites with worn-out sacks on their donkeys. All their provisions were dry and crumbly. Their wineskins were split open and mended. Their sandals were patched and they wore worn-out clothes. They said, “We have come from a distant country, so now make a covenant (treaty) with us.”

Joshua, the leader of the Israelites, was skeptical. He even wondered if these people lived among them. But the Gibeonites were very convincing.

From a very distant country your servants have come, because of the name of the Lord your God. For we have heard a report of Him, and all that He did in Egypt… and to the two kings of the Amorites… So our elders and the inhabitants of our country [sent us to you]… This bread was hot from the ovens when we left our homes. But now it is dry and moldy. These wineskins were new when we filled them, but now they are old and split open. And these garments and sandals are worn out from the very long journey.

Joshua 9: 9-13

The Israelites examined the Gibeonites’ food — did a quick look/see — but didn’t ask God if it was a good idea to enter into an agreement with these strangers. And so Joshua made a treaty with them.

Three days later the Israelites learned that these people actually lived nearby. And because of the treaty, the Israelites were now obligated to protect the Gibeonites from any attacks from enemy nations.

Filling in the blanks. Glancing at a situation, not looking at it closely. Failing to be discerning. Not seeking God and His wisdom.

Ouch! I realize I sometimes fall into the same trap. I hastily read a text or half-listen to a conversation… and fill in the blanks of what I think the other person was wanting to communicate. I look at worn-out sacks, wineskins, clothes — in other words, outer appearances — and fill in the blanks, jumping to conclusions about a person. I neglect to first ask God what HE wants me to do — filling in the blanks with my very limited knowledge and wisdom.

Live and learn, right?!? Hopefully! May we take to heart yet another lesson from the children of Israel and NOT fill in the blanks, but rather learn to be more discerning. And together, may we have joy in the journey of this thing called “Life!”

By the way… the “bird” was actually a crab!

At sixes and sevens…

That’s the way today’s journal entry started…

Finding myself at sixes and sevens...

I got to thinking… what on earth does this expression actually mean?? How did it enter the English language?? I know how I was feeling… at odds with myself. Not sure what to do next. Not really in a funk… but… well, at sixes and sevens.

A little sleuthing, courtesy of Wikipedia, says at sixes and sevens is an English idiom used to describe a condition of confusion or disarray. It dates from the mid-1380s meaning “to hazard the world” or “to risk one’s life.”

Various states of confusion and risk are true of our household right now.

A few months ago I blogged about our “trifecta” (see link below). Several major decisions had converged upon our lives. One by one, clarity has come. One by one, decisions have been made. One by one, we’re moving ahead… into a new chapter of our lives.

That’s where confusion and risk fit in. My husband and I have made the decision to move back to our home country… after 46+ years of living abroad! We don’t have to learn another language, thankfully! But a LOT has changed — both in our home country and in our lives individually and as a couple — since we first moved overseas as almost newlyweds (we celebrated our third wedding anniversary a couple weeks after arriving in Europe a “few” years ago).

Uprooting and then resettling yet another time is filled with a myriad of decisions, emotions. Sometimes it’s overwhelming. Scary. Other times, exciting!

And then there’s a day like today… when I’m at sixes and sevens. After sharing our news with our families, we started spilling the beans to good friends. No one has been all that surprised — actually, they seem rather excited! But sharing this news face-to-face with someone yesterday and another friend today… well, the reality of this decision and all it entails keeps sinking in. Keeps becoming more and more real.

I’m already making mental lists of things I’ll miss living here in the tropics, like the daily serenade of birds I listen to each morning as I sit in my living room spending time with God. And mental lists of things I’m anxious about with our upcoming move, like WHERE will we end up living???

I’m feeling a bit like the Israelites that I’ve been blogging about lately. We’re on our own journey in the “wilderness” on our way to the “promised land.” The journey is fraught with detours, challenges, unknowns, potential misunderstandings.

Hmm… do you think God may have had me reading that portion of the Bible because He knew what was coming down the road for us?!? That there were lessons to be learned from the Israelites that would help me today?!? In the 21st century?!? I’m inclined to think YES!

Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened or afraid, and do not be dismayed [surprised, disillusioned, disappointed] for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go. Joshua 1:9

… in quietness and in trust is your strength… Isaiah 30:15

These are some of the things I’m focusing on during these topsy-turvy days. Things that I know are true. Things that will help me keep my focus on God. Things that will enable me to trust HIS plans — even though they aren’t all crystal clear to us yet! I’m confident that by doing so, there will be joy in the journey of this thing called “Life!”

Pop quiz… and I flunked!!!

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Mrs. Warren’s trigonometry class. Or was it Mr. Schneller’s chemistry class? The words “POP QUIZ” instilled fear in my heart as a high school student. Would I remember what had been taught the day before? Why am I drawing a blank on this formula? Why did I procrastinate doing my homework?!? Ugh. Should’ve paid better attention. Should’ve been better prepared. Should’ve gone to bed earlier so that my brain wasn’t so fuzzy.

A few weeks ago I wrote about the danger of making assumptions. And, as often happens, life sometimes gives us a pop quiz to see how well we’ve learned our lessons. In other words, do I practice what I preach — or in this case, blog about??

Well, two days ago I had a pop quiz.

We get together weekly with some friends for Bible study and prayer. A time of hanging out with one another — catching up on what’s been happening in our lives. One couple couldn’t come because they were sick. Another couple said they had a conflict and also wouldn’t make it.

At least that is what I assumed.

We then got together for dinner with a third couple from our group. BUT… we received a text from the couple I had assumed couldn’t come wondering where and when the group would be meeting.

On, no!!! What have I done?!?

Pop quiz on assumptions! And I flunked! As a result, I now needed to talk this through with the others so that my goof doesn’t cause any additional misunderstandings and/or negatively influence our relationships. Ugh.

I’m not the only one who flunked a quiz on assumptions. Our friends the Israelites flunked BIG TIME!

After the incident I shared about in the “Danger of Assumptions” blog (see link below), the Israelites — both those who had settled on the western side of the Jordan River and those on the eastern side — joined forces to conquer the land.

So far, so good.

The land was conquered. Everyone went home. But before the eastern tribes returned to their homes across the Jordan River, they built a large altar. The other tribes — the ones who lived on the western side of the river — had a fit! They assumed the worst.

[We, the western tribes] demand to know why you [the eastern tribes] are betraying the God of Israel. How could you turn away from the Lord and build an altar for yourselves in rebellion against Him?… today you are turning away from following the Lord. If you rebel against [Him] today, He will be angry with all of us tomorrow… do not rebel against the Lord or against us by building an altar other than the one true altar of the Lord our God.

Joshua 22: 16-19

They were SO angry about this that they were ready to make war against their fellow Israelites!

Fortunately, instead of taking matters into their own hands and starting a war, they first sent a delegation to check things out. AND… what had been an erroneous assumption was cleared up.

The truth is, we [the tribes of the eastern side of the river] have built this altar because we fear that in the future your descendants [those on the other side of the river] will say to ours, ‘What right do you have to worship the Lord, the God of Israel? The Lord has placed the Jordan River as a barrier between our people and [yours]. You have no claim to the Lord.’

So your descendants may prevent [ours] from worshiping the Lord. So we decided to build the altar… as a memorial. It will remind our descendants and [yours] that we, too, have the right to worship the Lord… it is a reminder of the relationship both of us have with the Lord.

Joshua 22: 24-28

Whew! A bloodbath averted.

I’m adding a few items to my list of things being learned about assumptions:

  • Beware of jumping to conclusions!!!
  • Make it a habit to first verify ALL the info… to make sure you’re not missing something or misreading the situation.
  • Lay aside your own prejudices and preconceived ideas.
  • Recognize that our own impatience often adds fuel to the fire! It’s better to err on the side of caution than to barge ahead only knowing part of the story.
  • Cultivate a habit of listening not only to the other person’s words but also to their heart. To the unspoken things that are “heard” by paying attention to one’s countenance and body language.
  • Recognize how wanting to stick to OUR agenda, OUR plans can hijack our perspective.

Back to my dilemma… I talked with our friends. Everything was resolved. And now, thankfully, I can — without regret or wondering if everything is ok — continue to have joy in the journey of this things called “Life!”

Heart on paper…

One of the reasons I first started writing was to figure out what was going on inside my head… inside my heart. It somehow seemed to help when I “verbalized” whatever I was going through in black and white… with pen and paper.

One writing in particular still stands out in my memory. I remember when it was written. Where I was. What I was struggling with…

I was a freshman at university. It was a cold, dreary winter day. I had driven our family’s big, yellow station wagon over to “the Fort,” a local beach that to this day is my all-time favorite beach because of its pristine, uncluttered shoreline. I was trying to figure out who I was… what life is all about… how God fits into the picture, IF He does.

I vividly remember the way the sky looked. Threatening… yet at the same time, hopeful. Sun rays were peaking through the gloom. As if God were reaching down from heaven, reaching out His hands to me, wanting to pull me out of my despair and confusion.

Unfortunately, what I wrote that wintry day got lost over the years. But I still look back on that day as when I began to value putting my heart on paper.

Fast forward to today…

As I’ve been reading through the Old Testament of the Bible, I’m increasingly overwhelmed by seeing the heart of the authors on paper. I’m at that point in the story where the children of Israel are about to enter the Promised Land. They’ve been wandering in the wilderness for forty years (due to the disobedience of some of their leaders). They’ve been given directives as to how to best represent God to the people and nations they are preparing to conquer. They’ve been on a roller coaster of doing the right thing, blowing it, saying they’ll do better the next time… kinda sounds a lot like me!

Moses, their leader, is now 120 years old. He personally has been barred from entering the Promised Land because of losing his temper and not doing what God told him to do (see Numbers 20:12, Deuteronomy 3:23-28, and Psalm 106:32-33). In the book of Deuteronomy, Moses’ heart on paper jumps off nearly every page as he prepares the people for what lies ahead, reminding them of all that God has instructed. Reminding them of where they have come from and what is expected of them.

  • Do not fear of be dismayed… (1:21)
  • Do not be in dread or afraid of [the enemy]. The Lord your God who goes before you will Himself fight for you, just as He did for you in Egypt before your eyes, and in the wilderness, where you have seen how the Lord your God carried you, as a man carries his son… (1:29-31)
  • … listen to the statutes and the rules that I am teaching you, and do them, that you may live, and go in and take possession of the land… (4:1)
  • Only take care, and keep your soul diligently, lest you forget the things that your eyes have seen, and lest they depart from your heart… (4:9)
  • … watch yourselves very carefully. (4:15)
  • … beware lest you act corruptly… (4:16)
  • … beware lest you raise your eyes to heaven, and when you see the sun and the moon and the stars, all the host of heaven, you be drawn away and bow down to them and serve them… (4:19)
  • Take care, lest you forget the covenant of the Lord your God… (4:23)
  • … be careful… to do as the Lord your God has commanded you. (5:32)
  • … be careful to do [all God’s statutes and commands], that it may go well with you… (6:3)
  • … remember what the Lord your God did to Pharaoh and to all Egypt, the great trials that your eyes saw, the signs, the wonders, the mighty hand, and the outstretched arm, by which the Lord your God brought you out. So will the Lord your God do to all the peoples of whom you are afraid. (7:18-19)
  • … be careful to do [the whole commandment that I command you today] that you may live and multiply… (8:1)
  • … remember the whole way that the Lord your God has led you these forty years in the wilderness, that He might humble you, testing you to know what was in your heart, whether you would keep His commandments or not. (8:2)
  • Take care lest you forget the Lord your God by not keeping His commandments and His rules and His statutes… (8:11)
  • Beware lest you say in your heart, ‘My power and the might of my hand have gotten me this wealth.’ (8:17)
  • Remember and do not forget… (9:7)
  • … consider the discipline of the Lord your God, His greatness, His mighty hand and His outstretched arm… (11:2)
  • Take care lest your heart be deceived, and you turn aside and serve other gods and worship them… (11:16)
  • Take care that you do not offer your burnt offerings at any place that you see, but at the place that the Lord will choose… (12:13)
  • Be careful to obey all these words that I command you, that it may go well with you and with your children after you forever… (12:28)
  • … take care that you be not ensnared to follow [the enemy nations] after they have been destroyed before you, and that you do not inquire about their gods… (12:30)
  • … remember that you were a slave in the land of Egypt, and the Lord your God redeemed you… (15:15)
  • … remember that you were a slave in Egypt; and you shall be careful to observe these statutes. (16:12)
  • … let not your heart be faint. Do not fear or panic or be in dread of [the enemy], for the Lord your God is He who goes with you to fight for you against your enemies, to give us victory. (20:3-4)
  • … be careful to do [these statutes and laws] with all your heart and with all your soul. (26:16)
  • Be strong and courageous. Do not fear or be in dread of [the enemy], for it is the Lord your God who goes with you. He will not leave you or forsake you. (31:6)

Do you hear it?? Do you hear Moses’ heart?? Over and over again… like a parent getting ready to launch their child into the world. Do not fear. Do not be dismayed. Do not be in dread. Do not be afraid. Listen. Take care. Watch yourselves. Beware. Be careful. Remember. Consider. Do not forget. Be strong and courageous. God goes with you. He will not leave you or forsake you.

Moses’ heart on paper mirrors the heart of God.

God, our Father, over and over again wants us to know how much He loves us. How much He wants us to listen to Him and follow His instruction manual for life, the Bible. Just as those rays peaking out from behind gray clouds years ago were “reaching” for my heart so that I would turn to Him, so today God is reaching out to you, dear friend, to draw you to Himself, to encourage your heart, to guide you. In the words of Moses, “take care” that you avail yourself of all that God has to offer, and together we’ll have joy in the journey of this thing called “Life!”